This is the last letter that I wrote. It is my letter of acceptance. These four letters helped me work through the grieving process of losing my husband. Each played a very significant part in my healing. I found that underneath the anger I was in so much pain. I really loved him with all of my heart. Hopefully this letter will portray that to you.
I’m not happy about this, but I do accept your choice. I wish it could be different. I pray and hope that God will lead you down a path that will bring you back to him.
I know that for now that path is a fork in the road where I can no longer stand beside you for your journey. I would have stayed with you, but I think I would hae continud to keeping you from consequences that will bring you to him.
Although my will would have been different, God’s will is this, and I know it is so much more important that you find him than be with me. I couldn’t save you. I accept that, I pray daily that he will. I don’t pray that he will keep you from suffering, but pray that in heaven I will look across a beautiful field of flowers and I will see you, and I will rejoice. I will run to you and embrace you and be so happy that you made it. Because I know you and I love you. Not mine, but thine be done.
My goodbye song to you….. “Say Something” by A GREAT BIG WORLD
Say something I’m giving up on you, I’ll be the one if you want me to, Anywhere I would have followed you, Say something I’m giving up on you.
And I am feeling so small, It was over my head, I know nothing at all
And I will stumble and fall, I’m still learning to love, Just starting to crawl
Say something I’m giving up on you, I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you, Anywhere I would have followed you, Say something I’m giving up on you.
And I will swallow my pride, you’re the one that I love, and I’m saying goodbye
Say something I’m giving up on you, I’m sorry that I couldn’t get to you, Anywhere I would have followed you.
Say something I’m giving up on you, Say something I’m giving up on you, Say something