Step 2: HOPE

Step 2: HOPE

In step one I recognized that my trauma makes life unmanageable.  My thoughts and my behavior negatively impact my spiritual, physical, and emotional health.  In step 2 we come to believe that God has the power to heal and restore us. There is only one problem, I...
How to Become Honest with Ourselves

How to Become Honest with Ourselves

Okay, let’s just admit it, getting honest with ourselves is painful.   I look back to when I was married (round 1) and I hate to admit, but I blamed a lot.  I blamed him for my unhappiness. “Blame is the discharging of discomfort and pain”. ~Brene...
Reduced to Nothing But Soul

Reduced to Nothing But Soul

There were so many days and so many nights when I held on for dear life.  It seemed that if I breathed wrong everything that I ever loved and ever wanted would slip through my fingers and I would be lost.  Lost without a purpose with no hope of finding home. So many...
Fast Forward

Fast Forward

Tears, many nights have soaked my pillow, Sleep, wanting to fall into it and never wake up. Pain, deep and dark enough to stop my heart. Crying, “God, please make it stop.” Thoughts, will I implode from this anxiety. Pleading, “Please change his...
Why is Life So Hard?

Why is Life So Hard?

“Mom, why is life so hard”? My 9-year-old son asked.  I have to admit it was almost like my heart skipped a beat.  My brain went into worry mode, what is going on in this little boys life that he would come to me with this question.  Although my thoughts...
I Don’t Believe You!

I Don’t Believe You!

“It doesn’t matter what you say, or what you do, I don’t believe you!”  I didn’t say it in anger.  I said it because deep inside I know it is true.  Until I believe it and until I know it in the depths of my soul, my brain will always...