Do you ever feel like you are drowning?

Do you ever feel like you are drowning?

I can’t feel the bottom, I have no idea how deep the water is.  My chest constricts making it difficult to breathe.  I flip over on my back and reach my lips towards the sky above me to get more air.  I feel like I am suffocating.  I talk to myself, “you...
Never Ending Opportunities for Comparing

Never Ending Opportunities for Comparing

For the past two and a half weeks I get up early and I head out to exercise.  I wish I could say that I have such a love for it that I was doing this because I wanted to, but that would be a lie.  I set a goal for myself to finish another triathlon and the date is...
Zig Zag Down the Trail

Zig Zag Down the Trail

It had been raining all morning.  I had planned a Mt. bike ride with my son, but knowing that the trails would be muddy set me on a different course.  Swimming didn’t sound fun in the rain, then my husband reminded me that I could go to the gym to get my workout...
Creation of an Addict

Creation of an Addict

How do you turn a newborn baby so innocent and perfect with infinite promise and hope for the future into twenty-eight-year-old abusive sex addict?  or a thirty-year-old-homeless-drunk?  or a forty-year-old woman who is so fearful of betrayal and abandonment that she...
Accepting Love

Accepting Love

I walked through the halls, girls smiling from ear to ear, arms filled with chocolates, roses, and balloons.  They reached out and hugged the boys who had remembered them on Valentine’s.  Each year I secretly hoped that someone might admire me, and each year I...
Where Is Hope?

Where Is Hope?

I was excited for last week.   I have been really struggling with HOPE, and when I started…I kept thinking.  I’ve got this.  I’m going to spend all week researching conference articles, TED Talks, and uplifting stories, and I will find Hope.  Then I...