Step 2: HOPE

Step 2: HOPE

In step one I recognized that my trauma makes life unmanageable.  My thoughts and my behavior negatively impact my spiritual, physical, and emotional health.  In step 2 we come to believe that God has the power to heal and restore us. There is only one problem, I...
Taking a Toll Before Christmas

Taking a Toll Before Christmas

How is it possible to wake up first thing in the morning and feel completely drained?  That was me this morning.  I am anxious and just my normal day to day tasks seem to be so overwhelming.  Returning an item to a store, taking Christmas gifts to the school for the...
Reduced to Nothing But Soul

Reduced to Nothing But Soul

There were so many days and so many nights when I held on for dear life.  It seemed that if I breathed wrong everything that I ever loved and ever wanted would slip through my fingers and I would be lost.  Lost without a purpose with no hope of finding home. So many...
Fast Forward

Fast Forward

Tears, many nights have soaked my pillow, Sleep, wanting to fall into it and never wake up. Pain, deep and dark enough to stop my heart. Crying, “God, please make it stop.” Thoughts, will I implode from this anxiety. Pleading, “Please change his...
I Handed Him My Value

I Handed Him My Value

I walked in and all was quiet.  So quiet that I wondered if he was even home.  My house looked the same, the furniture arranged as I had it, it was cleaner than it would have been if I was around.  None of my clutter piles on the floor waiting to be organized.  The...