Living Safe, or Living Seen

Living Safe, or Living Seen

Blend in! Don’t be seen! Stay in the safe zone! My unspoken goal for most of my life has been just that. Ironically it was not what I wanted….more than anything I wanted to be important to someone, I wanted to be seen.  I envied all the people who were...
I Don’t Need Anyone

I Don’t Need Anyone

My husband had dropped me off early in the morning for my surgery.  My knee had been bothering me for a couple of years.  Who would have guessed that when I ran that half marathon my meniscus would break in half.  The good news was that it had flipped outside of the...
Comparison, Will I Ever Believe That I Am Enough?

Comparison, Will I Ever Believe That I Am Enough?

I watched the college girls walk past me with their short shirt dresses.  Their laughter filling the corridor as they headed to the event.  They blew past me, not acknowledging my existence.   As they headed up the stairs I was shocked at the fact that their hind ends...
Knocked Down, Wall Up: Trauma

Knocked Down, Wall Up: Trauma

I lay on the ground looking up at the blue sky.  Unaware of what just happened to me.  My body struggling to breathe as the air was knocked out of me by the hard fall.  My body hurt, soul hurt, brain confused, a deep reminder of how broken I am.  The wall went up and...