Temple Marriage= Fear and Panic

Temple Marriage= Fear and Panic

The flood of tears that occured when I filed for a temple divorce in 2014 could have filled the bathtub a dozen times.   I didn’t want a divorce, but felt deeply prompted that keeping the union between my first husband and myself wasn’t going to do either...
Letter to FEAR, Sealing My Words

Letter to FEAR, Sealing My Words

Letter to Fear DEAR FEAR: This past month I have been blinded and afraid to write because of you.  I have been afraid of judgment.  I have wondered if the words I have spoken here will be used against me when it comes to future jobs to my future life.  You did exactly...
Satan’s Lies

Satan’s Lies

Midnight had long since passed.  I sat on the floor my legs curled up in front of me.  So tired, and yet unable to sleep.  The silence of the night making me nervous, the tick of the clock in the distance keeping time for the unknown.  I had no idea where he was, what...
Powerless, Lost, Broken…. then a tiny spark

Powerless, Lost, Broken…. then a tiny spark

Have you ever been in a situation where you felt stuck?  Paralysed?  Unable to move forward or backward?  Fear finding its way deep inside of you. For years after my sin my husband held power over me, 10 years to be exact.  A power that made me feel so petrified that...