Letting Go of the Life I Dreamed Of…Embracing the One I Have

Letting Go of the Life I Dreamed Of…Embracing the One I Have

I look back to days gone by, I look back to being a small girl with a dream…. Maybe it was a dream of castles and a prince that would come to my rescue.  Disney cartoons used to do that….the prince coming to rescue the damsel in distress.  At the same...
His Addiction Changed Me

His Addiction Changed Me

When I was younger I had a fire for life.  I remember that I wanted to play in multiple sports, I wanted to be a pianist and a drummer,  I wanted to be a cheerleader and dancer,  every type of dance you can imagine.  I had a flame inside of me.  My parents had to...
If Only I Was Different

If Only I Was Different

Sometimes I wake up in the morning and I wish that I was ‘Just Different’ I wish that I could always say the right things so that I wouldn’t hurt people.  I wish that all my suffering was gone and that triggers and trauma didn’t exist.  I wish...
Part 4: My Sin, Working Through My Shame & Helping Others

Part 4: My Sin, Working Through My Shame & Helping Others

Starting in the fall of 2007 until the summer of 2013 this sin-plagued me.  No matter how much I tried to put it behind me it kept resurfacing with a vengeance.   I thought that I had forgiven myself, but each time my husband used it against me to keep me quiet the...
Handing Your Will Over to God

Handing Your Will Over to God

I remember the day I did it.  The day I reached over and tagged my partner in the tag team wrestling match.  I was tired, I had been digging deep and fighting with everything that I had for months, for years.  I was determined to win, and I wanted to win my way. I...